With, For, In Love

In the past two days, two of my closest friends have said: "I don't feel happy." and "I want me back." In the past day I've laughed and cried about my business and life but all the while I've thought, "What the hell am I even doing?" I thought I was alone in these feelings.  Back in November I started my own health and wellness coaching business while living in Vietnam. I, of course, jumped the gun and decided to go full time in January because living in Vietnam was so cheap and well, if I want something I'm going to get it. Classic Alexis. That was one of the hardest months, or so I thought. I became completely disconnected from friends, family, and myself. It was so difficult to be present and I couldn't ever "switch off". Enter February where some people brought up concerns to me about my connection to myself and them. One of the worst things I ever said to someone I loved was "You just want me to spend al

"I just finished reading all of your blogs and now I'm really sad." If this is also how you feel, then I'm really sorry. I never meant to make anyone sad. More importantly, I don't want to give the impression that I'm sad or I'm having a bad experience. Because truthfully, I'm not. I'm having an amazing experience. I came to Vietnam to teach. I really deep down came to Vietnam because James (my boyfriend) wanted to come here and I thought it sounded adventurous and one day we could tell our kids "Back when we were in Nam".... People apparently made bets on how long I'd last. Which to their credit is fair and I probably would have thought I'd be tired of it by now like I was in Costa Rica. What I found in Costa Rica that kept me there was James. What I found in Vietnam was myself (Original I know). Vietnam hasn't been about the food, the culture, or the people. Although I'm gearing up to write some lengthy and de